Darkness

I make my way to the graveyard. There's a reason for it to be called Graveyard of the Angels. As I reached the great gate that divides reality and fantasy, I hesitate. I wanted to really make sure that I want to cross the barrier. I realized that I don't really need to think anymore. I stepped inside and a gush of wind greeted me. I ooked down at my outfit and smiled. This is how I want to dress when I come here. Black dress, black nails, black shoes, black accessories and black nails. I completed the outfit by holding a beautiful black rose.

I stepped over the grasses to the very end of the graveyard where there's a beautiful white tomb waiting for me to join its occupants. I reached it and without waiting any longer, I stepped in. I went to the centre of the tomb and sat cross-legged, head down in front of a throne. I placed the black rose at the foot of it and said incatations. I seemed to please the 'thing' that sat on the throne and it placed its hand on my head. Immediately, I started to feel fangs coming out of my mouth, horns growing right out of my head and I found that my eyes had turned bright red. My face had a look of evil in it and I like it.

A raven flew to me and a voice said that I should take care of it, very carefully and gently. I realized it's my messenger and pet. I should always take it with me wherever I go. I love it instantly. This 'thing' now my king, loves me, I just know it.

And that's how I started living in the shadows and darkness...pain and torture is now my game....

Meanings of coloured candles

White
White candles are capable of being used for any work of meditation. They are capable of being used in place of every other colour except black. They symbolise constructive energy and beneficial will. It is a colour representing eternal life and light...

Black
Black is the absence of all colour, therefore the candle of unconstructive power. Use to release all unconstructive energies, to return unconstructive energy, to absorb unconstructive energies and to direct them.

Yellow
Yellow is an expanding wavelength. Use for the bringing about of desired results, for expanding and stimulating ritual purpose, specifically attraction and persuasion.

Orange
Orange is again a stimulating colour. Use for attraction of people or objects and to obtain desired results.

Gold
Gold is for the attraction of wealth. Paramount in used for drawing money, prosperity, and success.

Peach
The peach frequency is used for peace, truth, and balance.

Pink (RED-WHITE)
Pink candles are the gentle love candles. Use them for returning a lost love, bringing in a new love, releasing depression, and increasing friendship.

Red (BRIGHT RED)
Red is considered as a powerful energy candle. Use it for strength, psychological stimulation, generating power, sexual stimulation and love.

Green
Green is the colour of growth. Use green to promote health, finances, beneficial luck, fertility; any goal requiring balance and renewal. Green is the colour of healing and travelling back in time. Use green when meditating about past lives.

Brown
Is the earth candle. Use brown to ground. Use to create stability, security, or conversely, use brown to create instability and indecision.

Blue
Blue is serenity, peace, and tranquillity. Use blue for creative expression, understanding, and patience.

Dark Blue
This is the instinctive candle. Use dark blue for wisdom and self-awareness. Use for protection, causing change, and building psychic abilities.

Purple (BLUE AND RED)
Cosmic candle. Use purple for power, ambition, spiritual development, power over others, to connect with cosmic consciousness.

Violet (combination of red and blue) is the colour of remorse, repentance and preparation.

Inner Demons *by Sarena*

These voices in my head just won't go away...
Everytime I ask them to leave, they stay...
I don't know how much more I can take...
I wish they would materialize to be pierced with a stake...
Having these voices isn't very mundane...
But my mind will forever be their domain...

* a dark love confession *

please push your dark nails of faith through my veins again...coz I'm losing it in you.
i won't leave you, a rose in the rain...you're the sacred key to my burning heart.
filled with this vampyric lust lying on your tomb...remember when we're christening stars.
i was wracked with your with your charms and you fold to my arms...
don't ever let go our mesmeric sway...

tHe fIrSt pEtAl...

My first entry...Hi, my name's *Elizabeth*. It's not my real name actually but I prefer this name. I don't wanna use my real name. I'm turning 16 this October. My star sign is Libra and the planet that rule Libra is Venus. Venus is the planet of beauty and love. I could say that my capacity for love is greater than this mortal coil can bear. I'm interested in Goth and gonna change into one. Just waiting for the right time. I especially am interested in Romantic Goth coz that's their attitude, "My capacity for love is greater than this mortal coil can bear". I'm staying at the East side of Singapore, can't write down exactly where. Schooling at the East side too. I'm gonna take my N Level this year.

I'm the unlucky eldest of four other siblings. I've got two baby brothers and two baby sisters. Boyfriend? Well, currently yea...Have someone...But I'm not gonna put it down too...This blog could be read by anyone...And I'm not exactly preparing to risk that. I can be sweet and mean sometimes. My friends say that I'm weird...I don't know exactly how weird I am. I can get really loud and noisy at one point then stay quiet like something is bothering me the other. I've got attitude problem (that's what my GREAT teacher thinks), stubborn (very, very stubborn) and not tactful sometimes. If I got engrossed in something, I can really forget about the people around me. Another bad point. But I'm sure there's other people out there that sre more 'bad' than me. You can't exactly describe me as 'bad'. I don't always do stupid stuff. What I love to do is wasting time, listening to songs (no R and B and hip hop please), eating chocolates, sweets, bubble gum, ice cream, lollipops and junk foods. You think after eating all these things, I'm fat right now but nah...I weigh only about 42 kg. And my height is 157cm. So, not fat but kinda skinny. My sister that comes after me, she's 164cm and weigh only 40kg. So, more skinnier than me.

Why I'm so engrossed about Goths?...You have to read it up yourself. If you read about goths, I'm sure you'll gonna be so absorbed in it if you love the darkness and pain. But I..umm...scared of the darkness. Currently trying to overcome my fear if I want to be a real goth. And right now, I'm engrossed in Satanism. Not following it but find it fun to read about them and know a little about it....I'll write soon...Thanks

Email me or send a message to my Friendster at > bloodstained_blackrose@hotmail.com

You could add me at MSN too...Feel free...(no perverts please)

Thanks, Elizabeth